Hunnie,

HAPPIE 38TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!

It has been more than 3 years since we got together... 3 years is not a very long time, as compared to many. However, it's definitely long enough to show me that you'll the one for me. The one that'll walk with me in my journey called life.

I can still remember that, on the wee hours of that fateful morning more than 3 years ago, while im in bed talking to you through the phone, you told me that you like me..that I am the "angel" that you were talking about. I sprang out of bed, heart pounding slightly faster, and breathing abit harder...happiness, disbelieve, sweetness, honoured, a bit of fear, and a tinge of loss---I felt them all, in seconds..in the darkness of my room..

I remembered not knowing how to face you the next day in school..I swear everyone must be thinking that I had applied blusher that day. I felt that it was courageous of you to be so upfront about it...I felt it was rather manly...I felt as if im out of my mind that day..

I recalled the day you attempted to hold my hand..I only allow you to hold my last finger.. I remembered nodding my head slightly when you asked me the important question. That scene is still so vivid...You, cornering me at the narrow corridor of that sports stadium.. And when you held my finger out of the corridor, the guys from next class saw...that goes the first wave of gasping, and teasing from them...

Out of the narrow corridor, straight to the spectators' seat.. You shielded me with an umbrella from the strong sun..while listening to jay's "简单爱" from the discman. Those damn teachers must have been rubbing their eyes ten thousand times...But, who cares? I am very certain you don't...

Back to school, the second wave of teasing.. their reactions were larger than I had expected... JianHe kept asking me wheres "that guy with the nike bag"... Ziyang getting angry with you, coz he ever told you he like me? Erwan feeling happy for you too, I guess...he kept grinning when we were around him..Even your good friend Joanna says that we have "Fu Qi Xiang".. (Couple's Face)..Perharps that girl who went around telling people that you like her might feel abit "pai seh" also? But who cares? I'm certain I don't.

After flunking and passing sooo many exams, we are finally out of the school. No more prata and minced meat noodle and "Huan Lo Coffeeshop" le.

I could not stop smiling when I thought of those times that you piggy-backed me and swam far out into the sea, towards the huge ships...and I always enjoyed those times when huge waves were to cover us...not forgetting those times when we admire the sun setting while relaxing in the warm sea water..and of course, those times when you picked the most special seashells for me to add to my collection..

I felt so loved, when you were to wake up earlier than me on some days, you never fail to pull up the blankets for me before you go out of the room for a smoke..Also, before i go to sleep, you always tuck me into bed, rolling me up like a popiah with the comforter..this action of yours always make me giggle and laugh non stop....

I recalled with great relish, those nights, when you hug me by the sea, telling me stories of Lochness monsters and other legends of sea creatures..And, me asking you silly questions if you think there is a Lochness monster beneath the sea before us..in between bites of mos burgers..

I remembered that night when you told me you received the enlistment letter... I remembered feeling loss.. cause I'm so used to having you around..Despite that, we insist on enjoying the remaining days before your enlistment date..

On your enlistment day, I remembered waking up early so I can go to camp with you.. I remember you holding my hands at the backseat of dad's car. Then, you passing me the small little box that contains that pair of earrings that I had eyed a few days ago, but, didnt bear to buy.... When your parents and I were about to leave the camp, I can still remember how my heart aches..I wonder if u ever took a last look at me while I walked to the car..My guess is yes.. My golden hair must be so outstanding... I remembered going home to cry, and waiting anxiously for your call..

Now, 1 1/2 years later, you are on your way to ORD le.. I am so glad I got to know and love you before your enlistment.. It's one of the bestest way to show you that I'm serious, by sticking with you through these 2 years.. Morever, I'm glad to see my presence in one of the most important phrase of your life..Teasing from those ex classmates have turned into them asking me not to forget their invitation on our wedding day..How time flies..

Yesterday, we celebrated the 1st half of our 38th anniversary. You gave me the fragrance that I have been eyeing for one over month. I gave you a baby-taz, complete with diapers and one milk teeth.. I told you to take good care of it...To put it next to your pillow...We made a pact that if I were to be feeling down, you'll let me have baby-taz till I feel better...Baby-taz is abit similar to me..evil yet blur and dumb-dumb at times..I guess that's why you kept calling me "babyyy"?

Right now, the actual time is 6.20am, on the 23rd July 2006. We are going to the beach later..I can choose to go to sleep, but decided to write an entry about us before going to bed. Hunnie, are you going to remember this day, 50 years later, that I ever stayed up the whole night, just to write a short story about us?

Right now, its already 6.27am.. I'm going to bed soon..On this day, let me renew my love for you again. I LUV U HUN! My nose feels sourish while recollecting our love memories.. you have touched my heart..so deeply..

Let me sign off this entry with a phrase I told you a few days ago, in a kiddish voice, if you can recall...

" Will you turn me into a balloon? So that I can fly up to the sky to pluck those white marshmallows for you to eat?"

Love you always,

Laopo Shan

23 July 2006

6.37 am