I am a blissful girl, as of now. Not exactly extremly happy with my life or what, since I still have to work and all..but, just blissful..

I always thought my relationship with Feng has reached a level that's so high, so much better than any couple on the road, even those married ones.. I thougth I couldn't have asked for more..

After being together for more than 3 years, we have resolved most issues that are relavant to us.. We understand each other inside-out, and, we are so comfortable to each other already.. Yet, apart from settling down already, he is still so loving.. He bought me another bag from "Guess"--my fave brand for bags, with their matching keychain, just because I'm starting work soon.. He brings me home from work daily, and travels all the way down, just to meet me for my 1 hour lunch.. and of coz, he did so much of other things that I couldnt have possibly mentioned all..

With a laogong like this, I already am very satisfied and happy.. I thought I have the best already, little did I realise that this is not the full potential of where our relationship can go.

A few days ago, we talked about some issues that's so close to the both of us. I never expected his reaction to be like this. I thought, I really thought he is gonna "touch-and-go". However, he didn't. He talked to mi about it. In depth. I was in disbelieve. I never thought I could feel this way towards him. He is my laogong, my adviser, listener, my pillar etc..but I never thought he could assume this role to me as well.

Thus, from that very moment he talked to me about this issue, I fell in love with him all over again. It's so special. He makes me feel so ultra feminine. I felt I'm really his wife already, not the normal "laopo" that some boyfriends address their girlfriends. I felt that our relationship has reached another level. It's hard to explain why. I felt liberated, mature, blissful. He must have seen the change in me after the long talk together.

Now, and for a long time to come, I guess im gonna feel so goddamn loving, due to my new-found status. There's something so unique that belongs to us, that binds us together so much more. After work, I dun feel like going back straight. I wana bring him to enjoy the nice food that my colleages recommend, I wana go have some drinks out with him, I wana be so luving towards him, I wana held his hand so much tighter, and hug him much longer..

No one in this world can understand why, and I dun want to explain to them either. All I know is that I have underestimated this thing called love. It's just so unexplainable and profound. Love and feelings. Just when I thought I have more than enough, even more came.

Laogong, this is one of the greatest revelation I've had these years. No doubt I cried so hard that night. However, the bliss and luvvyness that I felt is much much more than the tears. Thanks for giving me this chance to experience it. I really thought I would never get a chance ever, in my life. And now, I've got it. The taste of it is like brownies or muffins or whatsoever. All I know is, it tasted so warm and sweet and heavenly. I'll never gonna get enough of it.